Hello everyone!! So glad you could join in on this week's free, collective card reading! How collective readings work: Because we live in a Law of Attraction based universe, we can only experience people, places, things, & experiences that we are a perfect vibrational match to. This means that if you've found your way here, then there is absolutely a message for you that applies to your life in some way. How to do it: Look below at the photo of this week's cards, and think about your intention for this reading. Perhaps you will have a particular question or circumstance in mind that the reading can provide insight into, or maybe you just need a general message! Once you've determined the card(s) of your choice, continue reading this post to reveal the cards & meanings. GRAB FREQUENCY TAROT CARDS HERE TEAL SWAN'S BLINDSPOT ORACLE: Exclusive item sold only at in-person events currently! Grab some when you go to her NYC Workshop October 12! Crystals: Infinite Stone Sphere, Cinnabar, Red Calcite, Petrified Palm Wood, Astrophyllite Card #1 - Intimacy in Reverse: If you have drawn this card in reverse, you are avoiding closeness with others. Your fear of rejection or your fear of losing yourself has caused you to shut people out. You do not really see them and they do not really see you. There are always deeper layers of yourself to reveal to the world. It will feel vulnerable and exposing, but the pain of staying closed is worse than any pain that could come as a result of being open. Your soul yearns for connection. Be brave enough to give it what it wants and needs. The consequence of not doing so is loneliness. Begin by getting to know yourself and by genuinely trying to understand others. Card #2 - Sigil 54 - The Positive: If you have drawn this Sigil, what you do not see is that you are preventing yourself from the awareness of and experience of positive things. You have decided that if you allow yourself to be aware of (or express) these positive things, it will lead to negative things, when this Sigil has come to remind you, the truth is the opposite. Most people draw this Sigil when they are preventing themselves from feeling things like happiness, joy, hope, positive expectation or excitement. It is easy to think that happiness is always a good thing. But the truth is, the subconscious mind does not always agree. The truth is for some of us, happiness is like a pot at the end of the rainbow. It hovers in the future like an unreachable goal that we dream of, but that we don’t think that we can reach. How did we end up this way? We ended up this way because we suffered so much in our lives that happiness began to feel false. We ended up this way because we felt blindsided by painful experiences. When we are blindsided by painful experiences, especially when we are feeling good, we start to feel like happiness turns us into sitting ducks. We start to feel as if happiness is vulnerability that leaves us open for attack at any moment. Also, many of us feel as if there is always a give and take in life and so, if we are happy, we are convinced that it means that unhappiness is inevitably around the corner. Here are some important questions to ask yourself if you can’t hold on to happiness: “Did it feel like the happiness of one or both of my parents, conflicted with my happiness as a child? Did it feel like my happiness competed with their happiness? Did it feel like there was no way that both of us could be happy at the same time? Did it feel like either I was happy and my parent was unhappy or my parent was happy and I was unhappy?” When we feel as if our happiness conflicts with the happiness of our primary authority figures as a child, we grow up to feel as if our happiness is at odds with the universe at large. We feel as if we are in a giant chess match where the universe is against our happiness and wants to punish us for our happiness. We feel as if in order for the universe or God to be happy, we must be unhappy, therefore it will make us unhappy at any cost. When we cannot feel happy no matter how hard we try and we feel as if happiness is false and only negative emotions are real, what is really happening is that we have learned to FEAR happiness. We think that Happiness is dangerous; most often because we have been blindsided by emotional, mental or physical pain when we were enjoying ourselves. And perhaps even more than that, we have repeatedly been blindsided by emotional, mental or physical pain when we were enjoying ourselves. Basically, what is happening for many people who cannot be happy is that the very feeling of joy and happiness itself becomes the trigger for a post-traumatic stress response. Why is this a problem? It is a problem because you are now fighting with your own survival instinct to be happy. The wires in your own mind have become crossed to such a degree that your own being is trying to keep you feeling good by keeping you from feeling good. The strongest instinct in the physical body is the drive to avoid pain for the sake of survival. The minute your mind associates pleasure with pain, your brain now wires itself to avoid positive feeling states for the sake of feeling positive. When this has happened, we start to feel like our own mind is working against us. We feel like we are being prevented from happiness in every way, as if our being is an enemy living within. But understanding this dynamic should give you a bit of relief in and of itself because it means that your own being loves you so much that ironically it’s motivation for keeping you unhappy is so that you will feel good. It is common for people who have been hurt to build walls between themselves and others. These walls are designed to keep pain out, but the downside is that they also keep love and happiness out. But there is another kind of wall that is built by those who have been hurt even more. This kind of wall is designed to keep good feeling things like love and happiness out, but to keep pain in. The most common reason why we would let and keep pain in is a dynamic that begins in childhood. When we are young, we are rewarded for being good and punished for being bad. We learn very quickly that the only way to be loved is to be good. Since we need love more than we need food or water, our very survival depends on us being good; but that there is the problem. What if we are born into a family with parents who show a great deal of love and support and even reward us when we are hurt emotionally or physically? We learn that pain is good. We learn that since love and support and reward goes to the person who is hurting, there must be goodness or virtue in pain. It is good to show support for children who are in pain, but this support goes sour when we are only shown support when we are in pain. It causes us to get the message that feeling good means being bad. We begin to feel shame and fear in association with happiness. Being bad means being unloved and thus ultimately dying and so we begin to see feeling bad as good and feeling good as bad. We think that without pain, we will be forsaken completely. Often, for those of us who suffer chronically, pain is our buffer. We are using it to keep ourselves safe. Not only does it prevent us from feeling loss and prevent us from feeling shock, it also acts like a cushion. For most beings on earth, joy is their baseline and they experience temporary bouts of unhappiness and pain. But for some of us, especially those of us who find our way to self-help and spirituality, the tables are often turned. Suffering is our baseline and we experience temporary bouts of happiness and pleasure. When this is the case, happiness feels like a fleeting, temporary illusion. Happiness begins to feel not real where as unhappiness feels like a more permanent, inevitable truth of life itself. If suffering is your baseline, I want you to ask yourself two very important and personal questions. Try to answer them with as much brutal honesty as possible: 1. What is my positive intention for being unhappy or suffering? 2. What bad thing would happen if I were always happy and full of joy? Most of us think that we are trying incessantly to be happy but are not even aware that we have a subconscious motivation to be unhappy. We are in essence engaging in a tug of war between our conscious mind that wants happiness and our subconscious mind that doesn’t want happiness because of what it thinks that happiness entails. Another potential if you have drawn this Sigil is that you are suppressing a positive about yourself such as a positive character trait or positive talent. People often assume that people only suppress, deny, reject and disown bad things into the subconscious. This is not the case. Imagine a little girl who loves to sing. If this little girl grows up in a family that believes singing is a waste of time and that the little girl has to get her head out of the clouds and do things that will ensure her future, she may experience enough pain relative to the disapproval of her family when she focuses on singing that she may suppress her incredible singing voice. As she grows up, she may even suppress the awareness that she can sing along with the memories of her loving to sing. This Sigil may have come to you as a calling to re-discover, and re-own a positive aspect of yourself that you have stuffed under the floorboards of your own consciousness. This Sigil has come to make you aware that in this situation, you are not letting yourself see, feel, hear, understand or experience the positive. It has come to remind you that you deserve to feel good. You deserve happiness. You deserve to express your truest self, especially those amazing positive parts about you. And you deserve to feel safe when you feel happy. Card #3 - Heart Chakra in Reverse: If you have drawn this card in reverse, the time has come for you to learn how to give love. It may just be that giving makes you feel vulnerable. To give, you must open yourself up. The question to ask yourself is, If I open myself up to give, what am I afraid of opening myself up to? You have lately been feeling that there is a shortage of resources in this world. Love is one of these resources. You fear that if you give or keep giving to others, that there will be nothing left for you. This is the root of greed. You are in a kind of emotional starvation pattern that has made you especially self-centered lately. You either haven't been giving or you have been resenting and fearing the giving you have been doing. The solution at this time is to begin to give to yourself. Let yourself know that there will always be more for you. What have you been denying yourself of? Give that to yourself now and when you begin to feel more abundant, the order of the day is generosity. Shower those around you with your love and it will keep coming back to you. Card #4 - Sigil 32 - Judgment: If you have drawn this Sigil, your negative judgment in this scenario is making it impossible to get the result you want. To have a perspective at all, you must judge. To even call a clock a clock is to judge it as a clock and thus restrict its potential energy to that of a clock. We judge. That’s what people do. And judgment, like any tool can be beneficial to you or harmful to you depending on when and how it is used. We all have a perspective about each other. If you have an opinion, you have judged. Trying to not have an opinion defies life. It is the flexibility or openness of the opinion that makes the opinion either more painful or less painful. And it is our perspectives and individual preferences that fuel universal expansion. Hearing other people’s honest perspectives can be very beneficial to our growth and to the expansion of the universe. A great many people try to get rid of all judgment in themselves. This is neither beneficial nor possible. Noticing and changing your painful judgments (the ones that seek to push something away from you) as well as developing a flexibility in your perspective however, is beneficial. If you have drawn this Sigil, what you must first understand is that it is painful to negatively judge and disapprove of something for both the giver of the criticism and the receiver. In holding a negative judgment, we must match the frequency of that negative judgment that we are giving and so we hold ourselves as well as the receiver in a low-vibrational choke hold of sorts. This is what we do when we try to push away anything in a universe based on the law of attraction, we do nothing but vibrationally join the thing we are pushing against. It becomes included in our vibration. This is why many teachers and guides will tell you to just not accept any negative judgment within yourself and instead adopt the policy that “if you don’t have something nice to think or say, don’t think or say anything at all.” But this is neither practical nor useful, and it puts a muzzle on a part of you that very much so needs your attention and care. Becoming aware of your own judgments opens the door for growth and sharing your honest opinion or experience, even if that opinion or experience is not positive provides others the opportunity for growth. When we make judgments about situations, we believe behavior is due to something in a person’s situation without fully understanding that person’s situation. For example, we may judge someone as irritable because they are on their period, when in fact it is because of something that we did to irritate them. When we make judgments about a person’s character or personality, we believe their behavior is due to a person’s personality, when often it isn't. For example, we may judge that a person has lots of sex because they are a slut. Our brains are wired to make automatic judgments. We move through the world quickly discerning. We do not spend time or energy on understanding everything we perceive. When we judge, we have an attachment to right vs. wrong and good vs. bad. We are very black and white in the way that we relate to the world. We say a definitive yes to things and no to things without much openness or understanding. In truth, you may be terrified to understand and terrified to open yourself to what you have already condemned. This is an understandable but unnecessary fear. It must also be said that people cannot change or often even admit to what you judge them for. It is too unsafe to do so. Flexibility and understanding is the only thing that will make a person safe enough to look at the truth and make changes, especially changes that scare them. For example, if you judge someone as bad and wrong for eating meat, they will defend their stance because in that moment, you are making them wrong and bad. If you push something away, which is what you are doing when you judge, it will not be open to you, or your perspective. If you have drawn this Sigil, using awareness, patience and bravery to get outside of your attachment to what is right or wrong, good or bad is critical so that you can understand instead of judge. Doing so sets the stage for unification, harmony and the communication that creates resolve.
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AuthorMatthew Rosewater, CPCP Archives
December 2019
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