Hey friends! I want to start by letting you know that I've decided to close the Tarot Tuesday chapter of my life at the close of 2019. This is the last installment! I created this with the intention that it will set a foundation on what to look at immediately coming into 2020. When you've anchored in your intention, look at the cards presented and see where you gravitate. Continue scrolling for the reveals. The cards labeled with letters are more for clarification on another numbered card or to provide a synchronicity symbol for you for 2020, as the deck is based on symbols. Thanks for being a part of the Tarot Tuesday Fam these last 3 years! I love you. GRAB FREQUENCY TAROT CARDS HERE GET THE BLINDSPOT ORACLE GET MILDRED PAYNE'S SECRET POCKET ORACLE Crystals: (Large) Honey Calcite Orb, Mangano Calcite & Bowenite Jade (Small) Purple Jade, Pyrite, Hematite, Amethyst, Lapis Lazuli, Tiger's Eye Card #1 - Sigil 13 - Their Goodness: If you have drawn this Sigil, you (and potentially they) are not clearly seeing the goodness, capability or excellence of the other person/people involved in this situation. You are currently only aware of negatives and potential negatives. As a result, you are making decisions and taking actions relative to that person/those people that will not end up benefiting them or you. Ask yourself, “What am I so afraid will happen if I admit to what is truly good and capable and excellent about them?” Perhaps if we admit to their goodness or capability or excellence, we will have to admit to our badness, incapability or failure. Perhaps we are distrusting of others and so we are taking note of their negatives so as to keep ourselves safe. If we see what is negative about them, we can justify protecting ourselves against potential ways they could injure us, and thus shutting ourselves off to them. Perhaps we are using criticism as a way to try to get them to change. Know that you may have the very real tendency of interpreting other people’s behaviors as having hostile intent even when their behavior and intentions are quite ambiguous or benign. Intention is everything when it comes to criticism and sharing our opinion. We have to be aware of why we feel the need to share our opinion. And even if we have good intentions, we still must ask ourselves if despite good intentions, we are harming the other person with our critique. The prerogative with negative criticism is to try to push something unwanted away from you, that is why it feels so resistant in nature. We are only critical of something when we are afraid we will be affected by something. Criticism is a cry for help in disguise. It is a cry for help that says the following… “I feel powerless to others and so I can’t trust myself to make myself feel good and especially to feel emotionally safe and so I need you to correct this thing that is going to cause me pain so I don’t have to feel bad.” Also, when we have the tendency to criticize because we are trying to get a need met, we mask our criticism under the guise of help. If you have drawn this Sigil, in the situation at hand, either you do not see the other person’s goodness, capability and excellence and/or they do not see their own or each other’s goodness, capability and excellence. It would be wise to open your awareness and see it so that you can make decisions and take actions that benefit both you and them. Card #2 - Emotional Expression in Reverse: If you have drawn this card in reverse, you are denying how you really feel. You are not being open with yourself or other people. This emotional façade is exhausting. It causes you to put on a show while rejecting your true self. It is time to stop hiding who you really are, how you really feel and come out of the closet. You are being called to express your true feelings. Card #3 - Sigil 5 - Bulldozing: If you have drawn this Sigil, you are bulldozing a part of yourself in this situation. Consciousness itself functions like water. If you are looking at a river from above, you can see that a large river often branches off into smaller rivers and each time this happens, there is less water available to the main river. Due to trauma (which occurs in all people’s lives with no exception, the question is simply to what degree) our consciousness splits just like a river does. It splits so that instead of whole, we are fragmented. It is easier to comprehend of this process of splitting (that is fragmentation) in terms of how it affects our being by imagining that when our consciousness splits as the result of trauma, our ego splits in two. And it can do this over and over again. This means, even though we have one body, within that body, we end up with multiple selves. The best way to picture this is to imagine that inside your body, you have a collection of Siamese twins. They are technically all conjoined because they all share one body. But each one has its own identity, its own desires, needs, perspective, strengths, weaknesses and appearance. Some of these internal Siamese twins, we like and identify with. Others, we dis-identify with, suppress, deny and disown. We have good reason for approving of parts of ourselves and rejecting others. But no matter how we spin it, it means that we are polarized. You have experienced this polarization any time that you come to a place where you have to make a decision and part of you says yes while another part of you says no. When we are faced with this situation, we usually begin to play a zero sum game internally. We make a decision so the part of us that says yes has won and the part that says no loses. It is as if the part of us that is saying NO to something is standing in front of a bulldozer being driven by our other part and instead of creating resolution so that both parts feel in alignment with the choice being made, the one driving the bulldozer simply runs right over the one protesting. This creates an internal atmosphere of distrust. It is an antagonistic internal atmosphere. The Siamese Twins that we tend to bulldoze the most are those that feel fear. We cannot bulldoze our fear without creating more fear. Instead, we need to take loving care of our fear. In this situation you must consider that the part of you that is being bulldozed exists and is currently holding a very important personal truth that you need to look at instead of ignore or minimize. You have important feelings that need to be felt and needs that need to be met. But you are simply bulldozing forward with the idea that you shouldn’t feel those things and shouldn’t need those things. If you have drawn this Sigil, you are bulldozing a part of yourself in this scenario. That is why you feel like you are moving forward and doing things in spite of yourself. You would be wise to understand that you cannot do this and feel good or manifest anything good at the same time. In this situation, you need to make sure that you move forward on decisions only after you have achieved a state of alignment between your internal Siamese twins. Card #4 - Reveal the Mystery: No matter whether you have drawn this card upright or in reverse, the universe has been trying to give you an answer; you have simply not been in a place where you can hear it. Ask a question right here and now. Close your eyes and focus on that question. Feel yourself opening up with a readiness and a wanting to know the answer. When you feel that you are ready, without thinking about it, walk over to a bookcase and let yourself be drawn to a specific book. Open that book and let it fall open to whatever page it naturally opens to. Now let your gaze be drawn to the specific sentence or paragraph that stand out to you. Read the words being offered to you as an answer. It may seem cryptic, but try to understand how the message you have just been lead to, contains all or part of the answer to your question. Card A: Iceberg: When you draw the Iceberg card, you are only seeing part of the picture in this circumstance, or there is a lot more to discover. Your awareness in this situation may only be the "tip of the iceberg" so-to-speak, so your job right now is to dive deeper and develop the willingness to uncover the entire iceberg. Card B: Saturn: When you draw the Saturn card, you are being called into a new Revolution. This card is here to obliterate falsehood and tear down the towers of illusion. Your job here is to surrender to the energy of Saturn and let this colossal force quite literally strip you of everything that is no longer needed. What is being targeted are thoughts, words, actions, and patterns, which if kept, can fester and become detrimental to your being. Now is the time to let them go. Card C: Dove: When you draw the Dove card, the freedom you have been asking for is already here or just about to arrive. The question is, will you fully allow yourself to receive it? Freedom is a common desire, however the trick to actually creating it is to address all opposing forces to freedom itself. In this scenario, it would do you well to ask yourself the question: "If I got the freedom I've been asking for, what bad thing or things do I think might happen?" And tend to anything that comes up with compassion to find resolve. Card D: Door: When you draw the Door card, a new opportunity is wanting to present itself to you. See, though, that the door isn't open yet. And it isn't going to open itself, either. Your job right now is to witness and identify the opportunity, even if it arrives in a package you wouldn't have expected. Taking this opportunity, aka opening the door, is where you are being directed to at this point in time. Card E: Shovel: When you draw the Shovel card, you are trying to bury something. The question is, what? What immediately comes to mind when you read or re-read this first sentence? Determine if what you are trying to do is hide and/or bury something so as to escape something (and if so, identify and confront the fear in the way of resolution), or, if you are digging so as to plant new crops to harvest at a later time, and to do so with intention and care, knowing that they will be well-fertilized at this time. Card F: Boy: When you draw the Boy card, there is an inner child wanting to make itself known to you. Feel into your own inner child. When you take time to do so, what sensations show up in your body? Ask to see an image of your inner child. How old are they? What place are they in? How are they feeling? See if there's anything you can do to meet your inner child's needs from within this mental construct and if they have any wisdom to share with you. Heed their words wisely, as they tend to hold our pure personal truth, and what they say and need is important and significant.
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AuthorMatthew Rosewater, CPCP Archives
December 2019
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